Oh Tannenbaum, and I do not mean Alyssa.

We took our annual trip to the Christmas tree farm.  This year Keith and Anthony were busy with other things so it was just the four of us.  My Mom led me and Julie to the very back of the lot and proceeded to analyse the trees. Julie and I decided there were no good ones and we wanted to scope out another place.  In the mean time, my Dad was loading the tree in the truck...the tree and he and my Mom had picked out the day before. SIGH...she tricked us!  We had a fun time anyway!

ZERO OUT

No Loss, No Gain.  Zeroed out for the week.  Hope I have better news next Wednesday!

...Robbie Roberto how did you do?...

New baby!

Jess and Les got a baby!  After picking up the new addition to their family, they stopped at our house to introduce us to the new baby.  He is SO cute and cuddly, I just wanted to chew on him a little.  When they left, they still had not decided on a name for him...I will let you know as soon as I do.

His name is...WRIGLEY!

Better late than never

My weigh in this week: 253

My weigh in day is normally going to be Wednesday, however my PT and I had a scheduling conflicts. The weigh in was today.  Although there was no verification, I can be trusted (this week, anyway because it was down ;>)

Keep on keeping on!

I thought I would correlate my weight loss with pictures as Alyssa did with Bob's growth.  Unfortunately they do not have pictures that go very well, so I am improvising.  At the least it may amuse you?
3lbs lost...3lbs of Trail mix

New WW

Rob and I decided this morning that would post my gym scale weight (not my house scale weight - so Rob can confirm it (also fully clothed ,sigh)) on my blog as motivation and for accountability.

Day 1: 256

Baby Hiatus

We are going on a baby vacation, not a vacation that is small, but a vacation from medicine, too much sex (yes guys there is such a thing), and stressing about whether or not my period has arrived.  We are not, and will not be discussing whether or not I am pregnant, or will become pregnant. A break from all pregnancy related things (about me). PHEW (kind of)

We met the IVF doctor and we have decided that (we) I am (are) going to take a year off to loose weight and get healthy for carrying a precious little snuggle bug. So, no more monthly updates and hopefully no more break downs (no promises).  Now, it will just be complaints about how Rob is trying to kill me at the gym.

So, the weight loss adventure begins...

Thanks for all of those who listened and counsiled and supported the baby making...we will pick up right where we left off  SOON!

From PB to PT...

I have a new personal trainer!  He use to be Alyssa's pool boy, but now he is my very own butt kicker.  Yes, I am talking about Robbie Roberto.  Rob (after reading my blog (see below)) asked if I was interested in working out with him. So, Monday morning we took to the trail behind their house.  It was a freezing 44 degrees, but we bundled up and headed out.  We did 3 miles, some jogging (a.k.a."Dorothy jogging" - as long as there is a bounce it is considered jogging), some walking.  Now, walking 3 miles would normally be a piece of cake.  However, this new jogging thing was seriously killing me.  Rob's motivational speech was "If the 400lb people on the biggest loser can do it, so can you."  Well, I was pretty proud of myself because yesterday I did the Dorothy jog for 1/2 a mile without stopping! YAY! Today we did 3 - 1/2 mile intervals of Dorothy jogging and I was feeling a lot more confident that maybe this jogging thing was doable.  When we got back to the house Rob fed me a snack of boiled eggs, a banana and water...mmmmm!   (The joggers gourmet meal) Then I was off to work. (Well, of course, after giving Buddy some love.)

Thanks Robbie for all you help and much needed motivation (YOU RULE!) and thanks Alyssa for letting me borrow your Pool Boy!
I also decided we should document how GOOD I look after almost dying, so Rob humored me a took this great picture! Thought you could use a little laugh today! (Sorry Alyssa, this picture is on your camera - please feel free to DELETE as soon as you get home.)

Depression

Today I have diagnosed myself as clinically depressed. FUCK! So, I had my ultrasound...NO folicles, not one folicle.  I am so pissed that I take all this medicine and feel like shit for the majority of the month and there are NO results.  I am suppose to go back in on Friday to see if maybe they were late bloomers.  You know I really try and have a positive attitude but this week just sucked.  And, I do not think there will be anything to see on Friday.  No insemination this month.

So, I started gathering my IVF information.  I tried to talk to Keith about it yesterday and we got into an argument about the cost and the effectiveness of IVF.  His major concern is that with my BMI the chances of IVF working are even lower.  I lost my mind because I did not want to admit that being FAT was part of my issue.  After going to bed and crying because "he just did not get it", I came to the realization that really he is right.  It is not that I was in denial that my weight had an effect, It was more that I thought I should still be able to get pregnant because lot of other fat people get pregnant. ( I mean come on, on that show "I did not know I was pregnant" most of those women are obese.) However, that is obviously not my case.

I don't know where I will go from here, I;m feeling a little stuck and stupid (stupid for not being able to get pregnant becasue I am OBESE, and because I do not have the commitment to loose the weight even though I KNOW it is an problem).  So, again my final thought is FUCK!

**P.S. To all my people, do not worry I am not suicidal, and you do not need to call and check up on me.  I just needed an outlet to throw up the weight on my shoulders this morning.  This seemed like a good enough place.  Sorry, if it was too much info - but, you will survive!

Happy Autumn!

I Love Autumn!

One of things I miss most about teaching Kindergarten is celebrating all the holidays thoughout the year.  I try and decorate my house and office so that I may keep in the spirit of the season. But, Autumn has always been my favorite.  I love the warm colors and cozy feeling the cooler weather brings.

This year I decorated for Halloween/Thanksgiving a little early.  I knew I would be having a Christmas themed party at the begining of November. I knew that my fall decor would be coming down early and replaced with Christmas. So I bought a few new **SPARKLY** pumpkins and found a fun place to hang my witch. Isabella made me the beautiful drawing that adorns the kitchen wall. And, I bought some flameless candles that are sented (they are battery operated- and AWESOME!).

So, for all of you who did not make it to my house to see all my cute decorations, I am now forcing you to enjoy and comment on how cute they are!  Haha...just kidding.

Happy Autumn...get cozy with the ones you love!

Family Time!

Today was a day filled with family fun.  My dad and Julie made breakfast at my parents house, and we went and got pumpkins.  Julie and I then headed to Vasona for the cousins BBQ.  We finished our day with a yummy dinner my mom made and some pumpkin carving. Cheers to family fun!

Trailer Sweet Trailer

Keith had a hunting trip last weekend and was dead set on getting a tent trailer before he went.  He had been searching Craig's list for a long while.  A couple weeks ago he started stalking this listing for a tent trailer.  They had been slowly lowering the price week after week.  Keith was finally able to buy the tent trailer of his dreams.  Yes, it is old. It has stickers on it from the previous owners kids.  It has holes in the tent, and cracks on the exterior.  However, it does not smell and it is pretty clean on the inside.  It is ours...Trailer Sweet Trailer. .  I miss the hotel already.

Grillin' and Chillin'

Today I had lunch with some Very cute people!! Melissa, Dylan, Luke and I had lunch at a fairly new resturant in Hollister called Grillin and Chillin. It was a tasty lunch. Melissa and I had the cowboy burger, Dylan had a crabby patty (aka a hamburger: I guess Sponge Bob calls it a crabby patty), and Luke had some ranch dressing (some of the time through a straw) along with some grilled cheese. Fun Times!

#2

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Football, Food & Friends

We spent Sunday afternoon hanging out with friends, watching football, and eating yummy food! Thanks friends!

LMAO

Hello Friends!
This morning on the radio they were talking about websites that you HAD to see. So, I went and checked out a few of them. I thought I would share peopleofwalmart.com these pictures are awesome! (But, you also have to read the captions)

So, when you are sitting at your computer procrastinating check it out!

peopleofwalmart.com DO IT!

A little Inspiration...

I think of my Debbie today, as I read a post from blog that her friend writes. She sent me the link when Owen was one of the blogs daily features. Lately, I read/look through the current entries and connect to older entries, before I go to bed. I get some calm and peace for my evening. The pictures are always so peaceful and usually make me smile...sometimes make me cry.(Sweet Baby Abby)

Today's entry made me do a little smiling through some teary eyes. It reminded me of how Debbie lives her days remembering how great life is, and how she chooses the people around her to be equally live. Thanks for sharing your friends Deb!

So, if today you had a bad day...or maybe just need a little inspirational boost...visit PEN AND VIEW

http://penandview.blogspot.com/2009/09/fearfully-and-wonderfully-made.html

WICKED

I went to the city to see Wicked last night...It was FUN! Except for the getting lost and parking VERY far from the theater, and having to eventually take a cab to the theater...it was FUN! As much as I hate going to SF it was worth it. And...I LOVED LOVED LOVED the actress that played Galinda!

Forwarding an email...via blog

MIchelle sent this email...I thought it was pretty funny. Thought you might get a good laugh too.

1. More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can't wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story that's not only better, but also more directly involves me.
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> 2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.
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> 3. I don't understand the purpose of the line, "I don't need to drink to have fun." Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and sticks when they've invented the lighter?
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> 4. Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you're going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you're crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.
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> 5. That's enough, Nickelback.
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> 6. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.
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> 7. The letters T and G are very close to each other on a keyboard. This recently became all too apparent to me and consequently I will never be ending a work email with the phrase "Regards" again.
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> 8. Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn't work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ's. We just figured it out. Today's kids are soft..
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> 9. There is a great need for sarcasm font.
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> 10. Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the **** was going on when I first saw it.
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> 11. I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people... I'll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone's laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I'm still the only one who really, really gets it.
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> 12. The other night I hit a new low at an open bar. I had already hopped on highway blackout when, inevitably I had to find a bathroom. Eventually I decided it was probably on the other side of the bar so I tried to walk over there, but ran into a guy coming the other way... We played that, Both go left, Both go right game to no avail, so I finally put out my hand to guide myself past and that's is when I realized, yup, that's a mirror I just tried to walk through. And the guy on the other side is me. Even cats can recognize their own image.
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> 13. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?
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> 14. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.
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> 15. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die..
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> 16. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text.
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> 17. A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.
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> 18. Was learning cursive really necessary?
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> 19. Lol has gone from meaning, "laugh out loud" to "I have nothing else to say".
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> 20. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.
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> 21. Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron test is absolutely petrifying.
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> 22. My brother's Municipal League baseball team is named the Stepdads. Seeing as none of the guys on the team are actual stepdads, I inquired about the name. He explained, "Cuz we beat you, and you hate us." Classy, bro.
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> 23. Whenever someone says "I'm not book smart, but I'm street smart", all I hear is "I'm not real smart, but I'm imaginary smart".
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> 24. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear what they said?
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> 25. I love the sense of camaraderie when a n entire line of cars teams up to prevent a **** from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!
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> 26. Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using 'as in' examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot. Today I had to spell my boss's last name to an attorney and said "Yes that's G as in....(10 second lapse)..ummm...Goonies"
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> 27. What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?
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> 28. While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and instinctively swerved to avoid it...thanks Mario Kart.
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> 29. MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
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> 30. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died..
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> 31. I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.
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> 32.. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.
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> 33. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.
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> 34. Bad decisions make good stories
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> 35. Whenever I'm Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don't mind if I do!
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> 36. Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?
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> 37. If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring would probably just be completely invisible.
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> 38. Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I'm from, this shouldn't be a problem....
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> 39. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you've made up your mind that you just aren't doing anything productive for the rest of the day.
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> 40. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don't want to have to restart my collection.
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> 41. There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.
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> 42. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.
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> 43. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.
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> 44. I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV. There's so much pressure. 'I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren't watching this. It's only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?'
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> 45. While watching the Olympics, I find myself cheering equally for China and USA . No, I am not of Chinese descent, but I am fairly certain that when Chinese athletes don't win, they are executed.
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> 46. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Damnit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail.
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> What'd you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?
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> 47. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
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> 48. When I meet a new girl, I'm terrified of mentioning something she hasn't already told me but that I have learned from some light internet stalking.
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> 49. I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it's on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.
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> 50. Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles...
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> 51. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.
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> 52. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.
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> 53. It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood..
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> 54. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.
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> 55. I think that if, years down the road when I'm trying to have a kid, I find out that I'm sterile, most of my disappointment will stem from the fact that I was not aware of my condition in college.
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> 56. Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn't know what do to with it.
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> 57. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time...
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> 58. My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day "Dad what would happen if you ran over a ninja?" How the hell do I respond to that?
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> 59. It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and the link takes me to a video instead of text.
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> 60. I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.
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> 61. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.
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> 62. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay.
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> 63. The other night I ordered takeout, and when I looked in the bag, saw they had included four sets of plastic silverware. In other words, someone at the restaurant packed my order, took a second to think about it, and then estimate d that there must be at least four people eating to require such a large amount of food. Too bad I was eating by myself. There's nothing like being made to feel like a fat bastard before dinner.
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pen and view: O.W.E.N.

Check out this blog...with sweet pictures of my little buddy Owen!

pen and view: O.W.E.N.

PISMO

We had our annual Pismo camping trip last weekend. Keith and I "camped" at the Oxford Suites and spent the day on the beach (much to Keith's displeasure, he wanted to camp). I have decided that camping in the sand is no longer something I am willing to do. Prissy me NEEDS a shower...DAILY! We had a fun time...here are some great pictures!


My heaven, the beach & Starbucks